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How can I say hello
When so much has changed?
How can I still smile
When I’m not that girl anymore?

Time has left lines
Along my face, eyes that were full
If hope are dimmed
And lost beneath weariness.
A faltering twitch of lips
Is all that remains of happiness.
I’d give anything to laugh riotously
Again, anything to love
Freely and without fear.

I wish that girl,
The one I used to be,
Was here.
But she’s not and I am alone.
I can’t even pick up the phone
To say hello now.
Where has she gone?
Where have I gone?



I have a goal in mind
But I can’t seem to find
My way from a to b.
So I’m walking,
A little lost and very much
Alone, straying here
And there, just looking
For a home. Maybe one day,
Or on a starry night
I’ll find where I’m meant
To be, who I’m meant to be.
But for now, I’m just me.

How I’m really feeling right now

No one ever told me
That life would be this lonely,
That the rain outside
Is nothing compared to the tears
That fall from my eyes,
That the lightning that breaks
Through the darkness
Is nothing compared to the cracks
In my heart. No one ever told
Me that life would be so sad,
That I’d start to rot from within.
That I’d start to hate myself.

But then I suppose I was naive.
Too young to realise that my dream
Could only ever be that,
A dream.
I come from a broken family,
A rundown, poor town.
I found my Mother after she’d tried
To commit suicide, called an ambulance
And helped get her back on her feet again.
I lived off food from relatives
And food banks. I buried my baby
Brother after he’d been born dead.
I tried to escape but wound
Up more trapped than ever before,
Crawling back pitifully.

And now I’m alone again,
And it really hurts.
I just don’t see the point
If all this, it never can get
Better. I’m just not good enough.
Everything is so shit,
And I’m almost out of fucks
To give. I’m done.


Over 7 billion people alive,
Yet only one me.
On voice, one heart, one sorrow.
Nobody listens, nobody cares,
So why do I keep bothering?
Because I dare to hope.
Maybe someone does want to help,
And maybe they’re out there right now.
Well, if you are I could use
A hand right about now.
My hope is wearing thin
And dreams are fading away,
I cry more and more each day.

Living Eyes

Look into my eyes
And you’ll see how I
Became me. Every tear
From pain, suffering and sorrow.
Every dream and hope
Of having a better tomorrow.
All the love and loss,
Living and heartache.
The sunrises and sunsets
That furnish my soul,
But no one wants to see
The loathing- that black burning
Hatred, directed at no on
And nothing apart from myself.
Maybe that’s why no one looks
Into my eyes, maybe that’s why
No one sees me.

Never Me

And so another new family
Is made, a new little trio
To tread the way to happiness.
Younger than me, more beautiful
And in love. What a lucky woman.

What did I do so wrong, to end
Up alone and unloved? No baby
In my arms, no love in my heart.
Why must I be the one to suffer
With a womb that’s broken and unable
To hold life? Why will no one love me?

To see friends, nay, family creating
New life, new love. But it’s never me.
It’s never me.